Masa berlalu. Kini sudah dewasa.

Assalamualaikum.

Harini kawan2 rapat ayah aq area taman perumahan kami ni buat makan2. Mungkin sempena sambutan tahun baru. So ayah aq ajaklah aq ikut. Sebab mak aq obviously la tak ikut sbb kena berehat lepas operate mata. Aq nak jugak bersosial ngan kawan2 rapat ayah aq. Tapi, problemnya, anak2 diorg semua kecik2. Kalau ada yg paling besaq pun sekolah menengah lagi i think. Which lagi muda dan macam tak sepemikiran ngan aq. Haha. Tambah plak la aq ni jenis susah nak start a friendship from a totally stranger. Susah wei nak ubah attitude ni. I am ambivert. Tapi bila nak start new relationship, rasa xpandai sangat. Mati kata mati bicara. Haha.

So aq dengan rasa bersalahnya cakapla taknak. Kalau atip ada lagi kat rumah maybe aq bawak dia ikut. Ada budak kecik yang taktau malu secara automatiknya bleh buat kita rasa xbrapa nak malu sangat. Tapi atip dah balik kajang. So aq memang xpegi laaa. Aq taktau nak bkawan ngan sapa satu hal. Satu lagi nnt ayah aq sembang ngan kawan dia, aq nak buat apa? Tercongok kat situ sengsorang. Baikla aq tak pi. Huuu.

Dewasakah aq?

Dewasa sepatutnya lebih pandai berinteraksi dan membawa diri. Tapi, dewasa juga buatkan nilai malu tu berlebihan. Sampai rasa nak associate ngan orang pun susah. I know I knew. But susah nak ubah. Sebab tu jugakla ciri2 calon suami aku nak yg peramah. Sbb aq ni pemalu yakmat! Ngeeeee.

So, in conclusion, I am an adult now, but I cant force myself to be somebody else. Maybe org lain senang nak bersosial, but not me. Sbb tu my circle is so small. Hmmm. Hopefully I will get new friends later. So, bai.

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A FEW YEARS LATER...

Assalamualaikum, 

Have been a few years since the last post. I'm wondering why I write this post. haha
After saw my friend's blog, I just simply want to write something too. my friend, if you ever read my blog, fyi, I'm writing this because of you. hahaha (25th August 2016, Intern-day after we reveal Farah Hida's dark secret.)

I've got nothing to say, so, with this, goodbye!

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LET HER GO

LET HER GO -PASSENGER

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go 
And you let her go 
Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

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hapdet.

dengan nama Allah yg maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani

dah masuk third year.
dah jadi super senior.
awal sem dah xde lemah longlai gemalai.
relationship ngan bebudak pure biotech semakin improve day by day.
ngan budak asis still standing together.
nak masuk fasa konvo aka feskum.
pastu masuk fasa prk.
pastu buat keje balik.
mostly subjek killer sepanjang sem ni.
paling taktahan subjek yg ada gabungan bio, kimia, fizik dan math.
jadual merapu.
rindu kedah. rindu sik.
masih terbayang2 kehidupan di kedah.
meeting persatuan masih xberkurang.
moto xbasuh2 lagi. haih.
mencari calon suami. tp nak kawen lambat lagi. insyaAllah.

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until next time.

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sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

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